NEW YEAR!?

So I could have probably posted this a bit earlier since now everyones getting over the 'new year, new me' stage buut I just didn't. Anyway - I've never really had New Years Resolutions, never really had the same thoughts as others my age about a new year meaning everything will change and that they'll become a better person. I mean, to me if there was something I wanted to do I wouldn't wait for the new year to come around to do it; I'd just try take action when I wanted. Just because the clock has turned over to midnight and December has ended does not automatically turn you into a different person. 

Don't get me wrong, I love the idea of a new year symbolising starting out fresh. I love it, but you also don't have to wait around for a new year to come by to take action in your life; if there's something you want to change, go out and change it. Whether it be it be you want to start eating healthier, exercising more, get a new job, end a relationship with a negative person in your life, travel - just go out and do it!

However, in saying that I do think setting little goals and ambitions for the year are nice so you can look back on at anytime and either tick one off, or strive to focus on one of them. Here are a few on my list;

This year, 2015, I am solely trying to focus on myself. I want to do things purely because I want to do them and stop feeling bad for doing so, if I don't feel comfortable going to a party but my friend's begging me to come because they want to go but won't go alone? Don't go, and don't feel bad about saying no either. I need to learn that it is okay to put myself first and that I don't need to apologise for that, ever.

That then leads me into my second goal - fade out the negative, poisonous people from my life and only surround myself with friends and family who support me, and genuinely want to be around me rather than whenever it's convenient for them. This has already started happening, so that's step in the right positive direction. I'm not saying that I had horrible, life ruining friends who never gave a shit about me, there were a few people I surrounded myself with who didn't show the same level of respect for our friendship as I did to them. And while that boat was going down stream, I began hanging around some old friends whom I realised had a lot more positive impact on me and made me feel valued as a friend and in whole; a person allowing me to grow.

In my last year of high school I studied and received my Certificate III in Tourism and had it set that I then wanted to go to uni and study a Bachelor in Tourism and Events. However, I lost motivation to do so and cancelled my enrolment in the course and it's only now - 2 years later - after tossing up between about five different career opportunities, have I began to feel inspired to work in that industry again. I want to work on that this year, start studying tourism again or even better; study my Diploma in Tourism while working at a travel agency!

Before I start that I've booked myself a trip, a Contiki Tour around Europe; 16 countries, 45 days and a major tick off of my bucket list! I see this trip as not only a majorly needed get away and refresh of the head, but also as a way to gain knowledge and experience in travelling before I come back home and try to look in Tourism. I'll be documenting everything on this site - just in case you haven't realised alright, so keep in touch!

This year I also want to try and put down my phone and close my laptop more, and be in touch with the people around me. If I'm spending time with someone, put my phone in my bag and cherish that time a little more, if I need to be contacted they can ring me but I don't need to be on my phone scrolling through Instagram and Facebook every second of every day. Especially when I've got someone in front of me who I can happily converse with, I'm very guilty of being on my phone when around other people and I really don't know what I was thinking and I'm so mad at myself now for blocking people out because I've been on my phone talking to someone else or watching funny snapchats. What an idiot.

Lastly, I need to learn to love myself - to appreciate who I am and stop trying to change and blame myself for things that happen that are out of my reach. I am a good person, I don't need to change to find love and acceptance; I deserve to be loved and I am loved. And I don't need some horny asshole boy whispering sweet nothings in my ear to validate that.

Soo.. maybe this was more that a list of goals I have for 2015, I threw a bit of everything in here didn't I? Oh well, regardless - these are my hopes and ambitions for this year with an added rant about each one. I'll look back on this through out the year and see how I'm going, maybe even do an update post at the middle and end of the year? We'll see how I go with this!

Thank you.